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Losing It

Aug 8, 2008
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Running wild, untameable... like an over-rambuncious child on a sugar high, I can't keep up with no matter how hard I try. These thoughts are taking over my mind, out of control with no end in sight. They keep going and going like the energizer bunny. Fears, random thoughts, conversations and worries. My body's breaking point? Fear...overwhelming fear envelopes me, floods me and Im drowning. Heart racing, short of breath, trembling....a blank mind. Shaken to the core...literally.

Do you know what it's like to have your brain, your mind endlessly running? Even when you're trying to sleep it's going, when you're trying to work, it fucks with your concentration, jumping from one topic to the next with every thought going unfinished. Round and round it goes like a carousel out of control .

I would try to explain it tonight, literally what goes through my mind in a span of 5 minutes or less, but Im tired and these fleeting moments, I have to make sure I dont miss....maybe this will be a night of rest....good night.

An Enlightening Experience

Aug 3, 2008
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I just got back from a family gathering. Actually, it more so a going away party for my mother who has recently retired and is moving to ATL in a couple of weeks. Seeing as how I don't normally like to go to these functions, for reasons I won't get into, I had a decent time. I caught up with a few of my cousins, chit chatted and ate some fried chicken--a must have at allll family gatherings. As the clouds started rolling and the clamor of the thunder and lightening started, everyone began gathering themselves to head out the door. I said good bye to everyone and as I walked out, my uncle said two things to me. I normally try not to listen to him because he can get long winded at times and you have to send an SOS for someone to save you, but he said " You don't die until you've fulfilled your destiny". He's extremely spiritual and is writing a book on the supernatural, which I haven't checked out yet, but would like to eventually. Anyways, I asked him if he was sure about that and he said yes. He told me he'd walk me to my car and I insisted he didn't have to. For one it was starting to pour and I did not want him to get wet and two, I did not want a long drawn out convo about what he had just told me. As I dashed for the car trying to avoid being completely drenched, he yelled, and I am paraphrasing here " The external is forever dictating what you do"....or something to that effect.

So, I got in my car what he said resonated with something in me. I still have not come to any conclusions about his statements. I just wanted to share that. Once I do come up with something, I will definitely post my "findings".

If anyone has any personal thoughts about those two statements, feel free to leave comments about them. Let's have a discussion about them.

QotD: Cell Phone Behavior

Jul 30, 2008
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A recent study suggests that radiation from cell phones may cause cancer; what, if any, cell phone usage precautions will you take in light of this information?
Submitted by Tim.

None. Everything can cause cancer now a days! It's pointless to me to keep shying away from things because you are afraid of getting cancer. Though I am not taking the issue of cancer lightly, I feel like people need to live their lives. My thing is, you only live once and no one is getting outta here (this earth) alive. Radiation from microwaves are known to cause cancer, radiation from power lines (so I heard) are known to cause cancer, certain people have the genetics that make them more prone to cancer...the list goes on and on. Stop worrying and start living